Reflecting back on my precious miracle

I am going through some old pictures on my Mom and Wayne's external hard drive since I didn't have a digital camera when my girls were babies. I was looking for pictures of Marian as a baby, but came across these pictures of Macy's very scary first few days. When this picture popped up on the screen my heart literally skipped a beat. It was like I was right back there in that room watching my precious baby girl hooked up to all those monitors struggling for life and not being able to hold her, feed her.  YET, I could PRAY fervently for her and sing praises to Jesus for her to hear. I remembered how scared we were and how unsure we were as to whether or not she would make it. I remember the sobering reality of nurses and doctors who told us how very sick our little girl was and that she may not make it. And yet, I do remember God's grace that was more real to me than ever before and how He totally carried us through that entire time. Thank you (five and a half years later) to ALL of the many friends and family members who literally put their lives on hold to come to our rescue in so many different ways. I couldn't even list all the ways God used you to be the very hands and feet of Christ to us. 


I have always regretted not taking any pictures of Macy like this (I don't even think I've seen this picture in 5 1/2 years), but I just couldn't bring myself to do it at the time because it was such a heart wrenching time and I've always associated taking pictures with "happy memories." I am SO thankful for my parents and that they took pictures so I could have this as a memory of God's grace to us in preserving the life of our precious girl. As I just put Macy to bed I told her what a miracle she is and how much I thank the Lord for her. 

Hard to believe this is the same healthy 5 year old that
blesses us (and challenges us =) every day! I remember her pediatric specialist
telling us that she was quite feisty. When I asked what she meant she said "Not
sure you're gonna like it in a few years, but it's going to really help her fight for life."
I guess I should be glad she's such a "fire-cracker" some days! 

My Mom was such a rock to me during this time.

 

I am thanking the Lord through tears tonight for his gift to us!